Not a complete break, but a mini break. I think I needed it.
Stats: -3lb
Avg burn: 2337
Avg calories: ?
I stopped tracking on Sunday, then I tried to start back on Tuesday, but I was just too busy. I am going to try to get back to it starting today, but I haven't tracked at all so far, and it's 4:35. PM.
After my sucky week last week, I was discouraged, but not giving up. It was a holiday weekend, and so I was doing some extra cooking. Saturday night I made spaghetti and meatballs. On Sunday, I made a turkey dinner, and I ate way too much. My stomach hurt. I started the non tracking by then.
On Monday (the holiday), I didn't get up to work out at first, and then it got late, so I got up and got showered, etc. I always intended to work out later in the day, but it didn't happen. So, that was my first skip day. I blew my goal of exercising every day until our Florida trip. I justified it in my mind that I really needed the break. I can't sleep late on the weekdays even if I don't work out, blah blah. So, not sure what was going through my head when I kept hitting the snooze on Tuesday. I guess at first I thought I was still going to get up - maybe do an abbreviated workout. I knew I wasn't going to be doing anything at work outside - it was projected to be in the single digits for temperature. So, that was the second day I skipped working out. I can't remember the last time I had TWO days in a week where I didn't work out. But, there it is.
I have to say, though, that on Wednesday morning, I felt so much better in my workout. I have been just SOOO tired all the time, and hungry. I felt like it helped in someways. And, I did lose weight this week, so maybe it's just what I needed. Not that I'll plan that into the calendar or anything. I may plan a lighter day every so often.
Regarding my other goals, well, I haven't called the doctor yet to make an appointment for a physical, but I definitely will this coming week. I did stop by the GNC yesterday, and I started taking a supplement today that is supposed to increase my metabolism. I just took 1 this morning, and I feel like it helped so far. I felt like I had more energy, and when I ate lunch, I felt really full. It didn't stop me, though, from eating the other half of my daughter's peanut butter and fluff sandwich! I really, really, have to work on will power. It's just non-existent.
My burn is low again this week, which, considering I didn't workout 2 days doesn't surprise me. But, I have also been running out of time to do any weight/isometric work after my cardio because I have to make these totally annoying stops to go to the bathroom. Today I had to stop twice, and I thought I was going to have to stop a 3rd time. It just eats up all the extra time I have.
So, tonight is game night with our friends, and I'll try to be good. I am bringing the appetizers, and I made one low fat dip, but the other two are not healthy at all. I guess I'll try to fill up on salad!
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Saturday, January 19, 2013
Week 32 - Depressed
Other contenders for this week's title:
WTF?
Feel like quitting
I am not a NUMBER
What is wrong with my body?
They all compete for top thought in my brain since I weighed in yesterday.
Stats: +4lbs
Avg burn: 2296
Avg calories: 1401
Avg deficit: 895
So, I weigh myself every day, and I saw my weight creeping up every morning. I didn't know why. At first, I wasn't too concerned - I bounce 2lbs at a time. By the time Thursday morning WI said I was still up 3lbs, I was not happy. Still, I continued to log my food, continue with my exercise plan, and hope I'd have a 2-3# bounce down by the next morning. I had sushi on Wednesday night, so part of me though it was probably just water retention. So, was I unhappy when I got on the scale and saw a 4.5 gain on Friday morning. I hadn't worked out yet, though, and I still had some clothes on, so I WI again later in the day and had lost .5 - probably just my clothing, but I decided to take that as my "official" weight.
Why? I keep asking myself that. What did I do/am I doing that is so wrong, so off? I did have a lower burn this week. I think that is because of two reason - one is that it's calculated using my weight, which was 4# less than I am :-) and the other reason is that I did not get in any extra workouts in my week. My deficit, though, is only 5 calories off from last week, so even if my burn is lower, I'm still maintaining the same average deficit. To gain 4#, I would have to have eaten 20,000 extra calories. I didn't. Say I ate my total burn every day, I'd have to have eaten another 14,000 calories to gain 4lbs. So, the math does not add up, I know that, but it is SOOOOOOOOOOO discouraging to see the scale go up 4lbs when I am already way behind in my goal.
On the BodyMedia site, I entered my weight, and it gives you this message - it said at my rate, I'll reach my goal by NOVEMBER 12!! So very discouraging, but it makes sense. When I lost weight before - and I was 10 years younger - it took me 19 months to lose 50#. And I was working out like a maniac. I should have known that 50# in a year was not possible. As of this weigh in, I am 8.5 pounds behind my goal - that's over two month. I have no possible way of ever catching up at the rate I am going and what my body is doing. I just don't understand it.
So, I have two resolves out of this. One is to make an appointment to see my doctor. I'm overdue for a physical anyway, so I will do that - even though I'll probably not be able to get an appointment for weeks, maybe months. The second thing is that I'm going to try some supplements - something that's supposed to speed up my metabolism. I know that most of that stuff is crap, but it's worth a try to see if it can help me bust through this - whatever this is. I've been in the same "decade" now for 11-12 weeks. Even with the holiday eating, I should be better than this. I thought the last decade was going to be hard, but this one has been way more stubborn. It's very discouraging, but I'm not going to let it sabotage my plans.
WTF?
Feel like quitting
I am not a NUMBER
What is wrong with my body?
They all compete for top thought in my brain since I weighed in yesterday.
Stats: +4lbs
Avg burn: 2296
Avg calories: 1401
Avg deficit: 895
So, I weigh myself every day, and I saw my weight creeping up every morning. I didn't know why. At first, I wasn't too concerned - I bounce 2lbs at a time. By the time Thursday morning WI said I was still up 3lbs, I was not happy. Still, I continued to log my food, continue with my exercise plan, and hope I'd have a 2-3# bounce down by the next morning. I had sushi on Wednesday night, so part of me though it was probably just water retention. So, was I unhappy when I got on the scale and saw a 4.5 gain on Friday morning. I hadn't worked out yet, though, and I still had some clothes on, so I WI again later in the day and had lost .5 - probably just my clothing, but I decided to take that as my "official" weight.
Why? I keep asking myself that. What did I do/am I doing that is so wrong, so off? I did have a lower burn this week. I think that is because of two reason - one is that it's calculated using my weight, which was 4# less than I am :-) and the other reason is that I did not get in any extra workouts in my week. My deficit, though, is only 5 calories off from last week, so even if my burn is lower, I'm still maintaining the same average deficit. To gain 4#, I would have to have eaten 20,000 extra calories. I didn't. Say I ate my total burn every day, I'd have to have eaten another 14,000 calories to gain 4lbs. So, the math does not add up, I know that, but it is SOOOOOOOOOOO discouraging to see the scale go up 4lbs when I am already way behind in my goal.
On the BodyMedia site, I entered my weight, and it gives you this message - it said at my rate, I'll reach my goal by NOVEMBER 12!! So very discouraging, but it makes sense. When I lost weight before - and I was 10 years younger - it took me 19 months to lose 50#. And I was working out like a maniac. I should have known that 50# in a year was not possible. As of this weigh in, I am 8.5 pounds behind my goal - that's over two month. I have no possible way of ever catching up at the rate I am going and what my body is doing. I just don't understand it.
So, I have two resolves out of this. One is to make an appointment to see my doctor. I'm overdue for a physical anyway, so I will do that - even though I'll probably not be able to get an appointment for weeks, maybe months. The second thing is that I'm going to try some supplements - something that's supposed to speed up my metabolism. I know that most of that stuff is crap, but it's worth a try to see if it can help me bust through this - whatever this is. I've been in the same "decade" now for 11-12 weeks. Even with the holiday eating, I should be better than this. I thought the last decade was going to be hard, but this one has been way more stubborn. It's very discouraging, but I'm not going to let it sabotage my plans.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Week 31 - Sabotage
It always comes to this - we do it to ourselves. Why? First, the stats:
Stats: -4.5lbs
Avg Burn: 2514
Avg Cal: 1614
That's my highest average burn yet. But, my calorie intake average is also higher. I realize now (duh), that I should have been tracking my average deficit. But, there are some weeks when I didn't track my food, so I don't know exactly what my deficit is.
So, I had the wonderful weigh in Friday morning, and I was really happy to be the lowest weight I have been so far, and below my last good WI, and, even though it took 5 weeks, undid the damage I had done with a whoosh. So, what do I do? Go out and completely blow up my eating. Sigh. I had plans to meet my sister, and I knew I would have a couple drinks, and I thought we would be eating, so I had planned on my fall back of salad. Well, we just munched on tortilla chips (too many!), and when I left, I was still hungry, so I succumbed to a drive through :-( The worse thing is that I felt like it was ok and even justified. I guess that's sabotage. I have not figured out what is going on in my head. I'm trying to not get that heavy - I figure, I had a couple drinks, my resolve was weak, and my hunger strong. I should have gone home and made a snack or something, but in the moment, I didn't feel like doing that.
I had a good week, but part of me thinks that maybe when I push so hard, I have these set backs - I have exercised every day for 12 days in a row (as of today), and I even did some additional walks at work because we have had some nice weather. I tried to get my food back on track (until last night), and I did achieve my goals of 1) increasing my average burn (by almost 100 calories), and 2) tracking my food. So, the hard work paid off, and I shouldn't beat myself up for the slip, but I think it's an example of how I can be careless with my choices as well as that I have no willpower. I really need to concentrate on my eating more. I will not be able to count on enough excess burn forever to cover bad eating habits.
So, I have a new short term goal - it looks like Chuck and I may be going to Florida the first weekend in February. The weather should be in the 70s. Not bathing suit weather, but definitely shorts and short sleeves, so it's a motivation for me to keep up with my work - my goal is to not take one day off until we leave. I can have a morning off, but I will have to do some type of workout every day no matter what. There are three weigh-ins between now and then, and that means 3 pounds could be lost, which also means dropping into a new decade. I'd be really happy about that. I should be able to do it - as long as I have a planned break in the early morning routines, I should be able to keep up with the goal.
My challenge these days with working out is that every morning I have to take a bathroom break while I am running. It's really annoying. I don't know how to get my body out of this routine. Maybe there's something I can eat before I go to bed :-)
Stats: -4.5lbs
Avg Burn: 2514
Avg Cal: 1614
That's my highest average burn yet. But, my calorie intake average is also higher. I realize now (duh), that I should have been tracking my average deficit. But, there are some weeks when I didn't track my food, so I don't know exactly what my deficit is.
So, I had the wonderful weigh in Friday morning, and I was really happy to be the lowest weight I have been so far, and below my last good WI, and, even though it took 5 weeks, undid the damage I had done with a whoosh. So, what do I do? Go out and completely blow up my eating. Sigh. I had plans to meet my sister, and I knew I would have a couple drinks, and I thought we would be eating, so I had planned on my fall back of salad. Well, we just munched on tortilla chips (too many!), and when I left, I was still hungry, so I succumbed to a drive through :-( The worse thing is that I felt like it was ok and even justified. I guess that's sabotage. I have not figured out what is going on in my head. I'm trying to not get that heavy - I figure, I had a couple drinks, my resolve was weak, and my hunger strong. I should have gone home and made a snack or something, but in the moment, I didn't feel like doing that.
I had a good week, but part of me thinks that maybe when I push so hard, I have these set backs - I have exercised every day for 12 days in a row (as of today), and I even did some additional walks at work because we have had some nice weather. I tried to get my food back on track (until last night), and I did achieve my goals of 1) increasing my average burn (by almost 100 calories), and 2) tracking my food. So, the hard work paid off, and I shouldn't beat myself up for the slip, but I think it's an example of how I can be careless with my choices as well as that I have no willpower. I really need to concentrate on my eating more. I will not be able to count on enough excess burn forever to cover bad eating habits.
So, I have a new short term goal - it looks like Chuck and I may be going to Florida the first weekend in February. The weather should be in the 70s. Not bathing suit weather, but definitely shorts and short sleeves, so it's a motivation for me to keep up with my work - my goal is to not take one day off until we leave. I can have a morning off, but I will have to do some type of workout every day no matter what. There are three weigh-ins between now and then, and that means 3 pounds could be lost, which also means dropping into a new decade. I'd be really happy about that. I should be able to do it - as long as I have a planned break in the early morning routines, I should be able to keep up with the goal.
My challenge these days with working out is that every morning I have to take a bathroom break while I am running. It's really annoying. I don't know how to get my body out of this routine. Maybe there's something I can eat before I go to bed :-)
Friday, January 4, 2013
Week 30 - Happy New Year
Cue the wah-wah music.
Stats: +.5lb
Avg burn: 2415
So, if you are keeping track, that is 4 consecutive gains. I completely wiped out the 3.5 loss I had in the beginning of December. I am now 7lbs behind where I should be according to my goal. From here on out, it will be a matter of chasing the tail. Even if I get extremely lucky and drop, say, 4# this week, I would still be 4# behind goal. I would have to lose another 4 the following week and 2 the week after that JUST to be on track. I doubt that will happen, but I am definitely buckling down with the new year.
At least my meager goals for the week were met - one was to increase burn (which I did by 31 calories, not much but it was an increase!), and to decrease intake. Since I did not track my food (still on a vacation from that right now), I don't have facts to back up my decrease, but I know that I must have just by virtue of not sticking 2-3 cookies in my mouth every day. Next week's goal will include food tracking - imperative if I'm going to try to catch up to my goal.
I did some cooking - making soup, and I am planning on doing some more so that I have a stash in the freezer for lunches. That works well, and I could make a really good dent in the weight if I keep with the soup diet. It's a small window, maybe Jan-March, though, when I have the appetite for soup, so I should really take advantage of it.
I start back to school on Monday, so it will be crazy time again. I hope I can keep up with everything. One of my other overall goals is to get more sleep - I have been averaging 5 hours a night, and that is just not enough to sustain all that I am doing.
Ok, here is to a better week next week! It will be a happy new year.
Stats: +.5lb
Avg burn: 2415
So, if you are keeping track, that is 4 consecutive gains. I completely wiped out the 3.5 loss I had in the beginning of December. I am now 7lbs behind where I should be according to my goal. From here on out, it will be a matter of chasing the tail. Even if I get extremely lucky and drop, say, 4# this week, I would still be 4# behind goal. I would have to lose another 4 the following week and 2 the week after that JUST to be on track. I doubt that will happen, but I am definitely buckling down with the new year.
At least my meager goals for the week were met - one was to increase burn (which I did by 31 calories, not much but it was an increase!), and to decrease intake. Since I did not track my food (still on a vacation from that right now), I don't have facts to back up my decrease, but I know that I must have just by virtue of not sticking 2-3 cookies in my mouth every day. Next week's goal will include food tracking - imperative if I'm going to try to catch up to my goal.
I did some cooking - making soup, and I am planning on doing some more so that I have a stash in the freezer for lunches. That works well, and I could make a really good dent in the weight if I keep with the soup diet. It's a small window, maybe Jan-March, though, when I have the appetite for soup, so I should really take advantage of it.
I start back to school on Monday, so it will be crazy time again. I hope I can keep up with everything. One of my other overall goals is to get more sleep - I have been averaging 5 hours a night, and that is just not enough to sustain all that I am doing.
Ok, here is to a better week next week! It will be a happy new year.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Week 29 - New Record for Worst Month!
I guess the title says it all.
Weigh-in: +.5lb
Avg. Burn: 2374
Average W/L for December: .5lb total for month!
Honestly, I should be happy that the gain is only .5lb. The burn is not too shabby either since I took off Christmas day (planned - still managed to burn over 2k) and the 27th (unplanned - just could not get myself out of bed).
I have been eating and drinking non-stop. New Years Day is on Tuesday, and I actually cannot wait to be done with all the holiday parties, gathering, and mostly FOOD. I have more than indulged myself, and I will be fine with returning to a normal, healthy consumption.
I am sorry that I have done such damage to my goal. I am currently 5.5 pounds behind where I should be - a whole month's progress - that I need to catch up on some how. I have started thinking about weight loss pills or something like that to help speed up my metabolism. Only I'm probably too cheap to actually buy them. I have started running 3 of the 4 miles that I do on my "long" days (did I mention that I got new running shoes for Christmas?), and I am consistently doing HIIT on my "short" days. My weights/isometric plans have not fared as well. Because I do it after my aerobics, it often got short shrift to an already over packed schedule. This is another thing that should be better in the new year. Although my classes start on the 7th, my social agenda should be a lot more quiet. All I have to do is manage to get out of bed at 5:04 AM, and there's no reason why I shouldn't be able to keep up with the schedule more consistently.
I also have to get back to journalling again - totally skipped it this week, it's just too difficult. But, I'm sure I was at the 2300 calorie mark.
Ok, I'm gonna sign off for now. I hope to have a better report next week!
Weigh-in: +.5lb
Avg. Burn: 2374
Average W/L for December: .5lb total for month!
Honestly, I should be happy that the gain is only .5lb. The burn is not too shabby either since I took off Christmas day (planned - still managed to burn over 2k) and the 27th (unplanned - just could not get myself out of bed).
I have been eating and drinking non-stop. New Years Day is on Tuesday, and I actually cannot wait to be done with all the holiday parties, gathering, and mostly FOOD. I have more than indulged myself, and I will be fine with returning to a normal, healthy consumption.
I am sorry that I have done such damage to my goal. I am currently 5.5 pounds behind where I should be - a whole month's progress - that I need to catch up on some how. I have started thinking about weight loss pills or something like that to help speed up my metabolism. Only I'm probably too cheap to actually buy them. I have started running 3 of the 4 miles that I do on my "long" days (did I mention that I got new running shoes for Christmas?), and I am consistently doing HIIT on my "short" days. My weights/isometric plans have not fared as well. Because I do it after my aerobics, it often got short shrift to an already over packed schedule. This is another thing that should be better in the new year. Although my classes start on the 7th, my social agenda should be a lot more quiet. All I have to do is manage to get out of bed at 5:04 AM, and there's no reason why I shouldn't be able to keep up with the schedule more consistently.
I also have to get back to journalling again - totally skipped it this week, it's just too difficult. But, I'm sure I was at the 2300 calorie mark.
Ok, I'm gonna sign off for now. I hope to have a better report next week!
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Week 28 - No Christmas Miracle
Ok, may as well get right to the stats:
Weigh in: +1.5lb
Avg. Burn: 2474
Avg. Cal consumed: 1369
This week was tough, definitely the beginning of the holiday eating. If I am honest with myself, there is probably another 200 calories consumed on average, so at least 1569. However, that still gives me a 1105 deficit, so once again, I'm baffled that I GAINED. I can see staying the same - just the deviation from my usual menu could cause my system to retain fluid, etc., but gaining is just discouraging.
I am doing well, however, with my goal to get to Christmas with continuous exercise. My burn rate is one of the best I've had in weeks - actually, since October, so I am psyched about that.
This next week will be even more challenging, starting today, there is almost daily celebrations, and the food that is around for munching - cookies, candy, crackers, cheese, yummy left overs - it's all too accessible. I'm going to try to be good, but also try not to stress over it too much. I'll focus on keeping up with my exercise and I still have a million things to get done, so hopefully I'll be too busy to eat too much!
Weigh in: +1.5lb
Avg. Burn: 2474
Avg. Cal consumed: 1369
This week was tough, definitely the beginning of the holiday eating. If I am honest with myself, there is probably another 200 calories consumed on average, so at least 1569. However, that still gives me a 1105 deficit, so once again, I'm baffled that I GAINED. I can see staying the same - just the deviation from my usual menu could cause my system to retain fluid, etc., but gaining is just discouraging.
I am doing well, however, with my goal to get to Christmas with continuous exercise. My burn rate is one of the best I've had in weeks - actually, since October, so I am psyched about that.
This next week will be even more challenging, starting today, there is almost daily celebrations, and the food that is around for munching - cookies, candy, crackers, cheese, yummy left overs - it's all too accessible. I'm going to try to be good, but also try not to stress over it too much. I'll focus on keeping up with my exercise and I still have a million things to get done, so hopefully I'll be too busy to eat too much!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Week 27 - the Whoosh Fairy taketh away, and the Whoosh Fairy giveth :-(
I guess I can't really call it a "whoosh", but I gained back 1lb this week:
Stats: +1lb
Ave Burn: 2402
I don't know my average calorie intake because I have not be tracking :-( Honestly, I am just treading water here - which is kind of what I realized would happen during the holidays. So, now I'm behind my goal again, but only by .5. I am going to really try to get back to tracking my calories. Although I don't believe that I ate 2400 calories a day PLUS 3500 more to gain a pound, I'm sure that my eating and drinking has played a part in my lack of progress. It's the holidays!
On Wednesday morning, I completely blew through my alarm and missed working out. I mean, I don't even remember my alarm going off, so you know I was in deep REM sleep. This was not good because I had plans for lunch, and that meant there would be no opportunity to make up my workout for the day. I guess, considering that, I did ok with a 2401 burn average, but I just cannot afford those types of slip ups. I think what happened was that I was up pretty late getting stuff done and ready for the next day, and I just hit the wrong button when the alarm went off - not even really waking up for it. I try to take these experiences as a sign - my body must have really needed that sleep!
This coming week will be another whirlwind of activity leading up to the holiday and my SIL and niece coming to stay with us. In addition, there will be mass baking and cooking. This is what makes it extra challenging to track my food. One bite of chicken tiki masala, one chicken salad finger sandwich, a sliver of lasagna, a half a glass of punch, and one bite sized chocolate dessert thing. Oh, and a palm full of M&Ms. It's all so hard and time consuming to track. Part of me just wants to put "1000 calories of misc junk". What I describe is exactly what is coming up on Thursday - our work pot luck and Yankee swap. But, there will be several more occasions where the sampling will be similar. I should really try to figure out a strategy for dealing with it without over-doing it.
For one thing, I have a goal to work out every day until Christmas, but take Christmas off (because the kids get up so early, it would be difficult to work out that morning anyway, so I may as well give in to it). Then, it will be right back to it the next day. At least this will keep up my burn rate so that I don't gain 5lbs in the next week, maybe only 2 or 3.
Stats: +1lb
Ave Burn: 2402
I don't know my average calorie intake because I have not be tracking :-( Honestly, I am just treading water here - which is kind of what I realized would happen during the holidays. So, now I'm behind my goal again, but only by .5. I am going to really try to get back to tracking my calories. Although I don't believe that I ate 2400 calories a day PLUS 3500 more to gain a pound, I'm sure that my eating and drinking has played a part in my lack of progress. It's the holidays!
On Wednesday morning, I completely blew through my alarm and missed working out. I mean, I don't even remember my alarm going off, so you know I was in deep REM sleep. This was not good because I had plans for lunch, and that meant there would be no opportunity to make up my workout for the day. I guess, considering that, I did ok with a 2401 burn average, but I just cannot afford those types of slip ups. I think what happened was that I was up pretty late getting stuff done and ready for the next day, and I just hit the wrong button when the alarm went off - not even really waking up for it. I try to take these experiences as a sign - my body must have really needed that sleep!
This coming week will be another whirlwind of activity leading up to the holiday and my SIL and niece coming to stay with us. In addition, there will be mass baking and cooking. This is what makes it extra challenging to track my food. One bite of chicken tiki masala, one chicken salad finger sandwich, a sliver of lasagna, a half a glass of punch, and one bite sized chocolate dessert thing. Oh, and a palm full of M&Ms. It's all so hard and time consuming to track. Part of me just wants to put "1000 calories of misc junk". What I describe is exactly what is coming up on Thursday - our work pot luck and Yankee swap. But, there will be several more occasions where the sampling will be similar. I should really try to figure out a strategy for dealing with it without over-doing it.
For one thing, I have a goal to work out every day until Christmas, but take Christmas off (because the kids get up so early, it would be difficult to work out that morning anyway, so I may as well give in to it). Then, it will be right back to it the next day. At least this will keep up my burn rate so that I don't gain 5lbs in the next week, maybe only 2 or 3.
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